I need sun

I have been waiting for Summer since around November 2011 when I innocently mentioned to a friend of mine how I was looking forward to the Summer because I expected Holly would be walking by then and I imagined I'd be able to lounge beneath the heat of the sun while Sadie and Holly ran around on bone dry ground. The very idea of Summer 2012, of not being pregnant, of not having a baby in arms kept me going through that Winter, that wet Spring and it wasn't long before that Summer dragged slowly by while I watched it lashing rain in gales against our windows. I do believe I heard those gales mocking me.
Foolishly, I had mentioned my vision of the summer to enough people that for June, July and August last year I received a stream of text messages that offered me such witticisms as "you might as well have been pregnant." The first few texts made me laugh, the last few nearly made me cry as we moved into Autumn and all my hopes of a few sunny days of fun out in the garden that didn't result in children soaked to the skin five minutes after we set foot outside the door were dashed.
The current lack-of-sunlight situation has been exacerbated by Martin's obsession with the weather forecast. He checks Met Éireann a few times a day and sometimes he looks at the clock as if he might have missed something very important and then flings himself across the room to turn on either the TV or the radio just to hear about the bloody weather. I have no idea why Martin takes weather forecasts so seriously and he is not the only Irish person I know who does this. In 2009 and again in 2010 I was due or had just had a baby while we were snowed in. The snow hadn't been predicted but Martin's allegiance to Met Éireann and the other seers never wavered. I think weather forecasting must be the best job in the world. Although, I suppose meteorologists aren't the only ones in Ireland who can say what they want and not be held accountable.
Now that we're into 2013 and Spring is officially here I find myself willing to settle for any bit of brightness, negotiating with the elements in my mind, considering that if all the bulbs are shooting through then surely we will get a Spring to enjoy.
There was a flash of dazzling sunshine this afternoon and I had the girls in hats and coats in seconds. I literally threw them out the door. It was cold. I didn't care, I just wanted some sun.
Sadie and Holly ended up, of course, covered in mud. I wasn't all that happy about it since we had to come in out of the cold too early for putting their pyjamas on so I had to get them full changes of clothes. But I had a taste of sunlight and even that little bit did me good.


 

Mother Nature, I'm not asking for much, just for this July to be better than last July. If you are at all unsure of what I'm saying please try for the opposite of the photo above.